What is it Like?
What is it like to not have to fret?
What is it like to not be in debt?
What is it like to know only know good?
What is it like to be the best that you could?
What is it like to not be afraid?
What is it like to not feel like a maid?
What is it like to not care?
What is it like to not have to share?
What is it like to have nothing to say?
What is it like to have a simple day?
What is it like to have emotions?
What is it like to not stir up commotion?
What is it like to have freedom?
What is it like to not be dumb?
What is it like to know not?
What is like to own a lot?
What is it like to have a simple mind?
"I want you to reject anyone or anything that made you feel like you don't belong or don't fit in or you're not good enough or pretty enough or thin enough or can't sing well enough or dance well enough or write a song well enough or that you'll never win a grammy or you'll never sell out in Madison Square Garden! You just remember you are a god damn superstar and you were Born This Way!"
-Lady Gaga
100 Things
1. I am a Christian
2. My four favorite animals are Sharks, Narwhals, Unicorns, and Lions
3. I am Russian
4. My favorite color is bright red
5. I love breakfast foods
6. Lady Gaga is amazing, not just with her music but also with what she stands for
7. I want to live in Alaska when I grow up
8. I love Dr. Seuss
9. My favorite show in the world is Bones
10. I believe in gay rights
11. I want to be a Forensic Anthropologist when I grow up
12. I don't want to be famous or anything when I grow up
13. I love going outside
14. My passion is volleyball, I practice everyday
15. I'm pessimistic
16. I have my iPod playin
I Am Poem
I am strong and courageous
I wonder what I will be when I grow up
I hear the shouts of my team members going for the ball
I am strong and courageous
I pretend to be a professional when I am alone to motivate myself
I feel no pressure when I am on the court
I touch the ball and pass it to the setter
I worry that our coach underestimates our passion for what we love
I cry from joy inside when I perfect my jump serve
I am strong and courageous
I understand the rules and the penalties
I say prayer before every game and practice
I try to beat my best every day
I hope I can play volleyball forever
I am strong and courageo
I conversed with the Devil,
Under the half moon.
Flirted like a whore,
Rambling like a loon.
Breathed his cocaine heart,
A cheek made of lye.
Lips stained with soot,
A bullet for an eye.
I found a tainted knife,
Giving 'way to rust.
He carved my tainted heart out,
And ate it 'way in lust.
His tongue was deceitful.
Razors licked my wrists.
My soul condemned, he took me,,
With just one grimy kiss.
Forbidden whispers in my ear,
I grabbed him by the horns.
A wicked smile and vicious eyes,
Until my body was torn.
I danced for the Devil,
Among hell's furious fires.
I am his harlot woman.
I'm all that he desires.
The name is Emilie Nordoff if you can't see the big black letters at the top It's not my first choice of a last name but it'll do I have depression, anxiety, ADD, Lack of Social Skills, and a truck load of other problems. I drink and do drugs. I live on the wild side. Screw you.
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One year ago today I never thought I'd become this dark, messed, depressed, suicidal person.
One year ago I don't think I'd ever have thought of myself to get arrested, do drugs, drink, or cut myself. I was completely against it.
I never thought I'd be asking kids at school for weed or ecstasy.
I never thought I'd show up to school so drunk that I can't remember what happened in class that day.
I'm so fucking messed up.
I've been put on meds and now on my fourth therapist.
It's hopeless, I am forever more suicidal.
I just want
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Finally here I am. I am back, and happy. I am free and ready to start over, hopefully I post some new things soon but not sure when (:
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I got in trouble with family, friends, and a whole bunch of other people and I have been writing but some things are too personal and also I have not been able to find a time to post anything since I got grounded and being monitored 24/7. I will try to post more things soon but I'm not sure if I will be able to (:
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